possibly maybe.
These are some entries i wanted to keep on this site instead

May 24 09
That feeling when there's someone you need to talk to. doesn't really matter who but expect a textbook walk through. its not there, but your mind says there's somewhere you need to walk to. lost and abuse. you warned the world but they lit the fuse. a kamikaze that's not feeling sorry. evil acts with justifiable reasons. if you had amnesia you'd create treason because its not something you really believe in. now you realize there's nothing that can justify being a demon its just a result of being bitter

May 04 09
Crunch time
And even if i thought you were cute there'd be nothing I can do. swaying those hips side to side isn't going to bend the truth, but i wont lie when it comes to thoughts about knocking boots but shoot i'm only human and you too man. you judged me hence the contradiction, cigarettes and beer's aren't the only known addictions. money sex and drugs are desired more than love so a majority go to sleep with nothing but their coke to hug, yet you look down on me like im just another coked out thug, fuck. stop drop and suck then watch episodes of nip/tuck. repeat but don't rinse. living a lie is a cinch but once reality hits we realize this planets a bitch, but don't you love it?

Thursday, February 19, 2009
And I..
Still believe this world is too emo. Beautiful angels walk this earth in search for some clean clothes. Something that has not been stained, but when it's all said and done you'll be left looking the same. People fail to aknowledge karma justified every shitty event in life so everyone feels lost. We spread our cause, but not our cure. We prefer not to believe in god because we know ourselves we're not pure. Ask about my fate and i'll tell you too I'm not sure, but i've been working on it so i'm not overwhelmed with guilt. You could wait until your mid life crisis to break that seal, but you still have to convince your crew because they're training the youth to rally up like troops, bust tooths, burn coops, and aim guns too. You've realized you've been supporting a lifestyle that's anything but true but now you feel like there's nothing you can do. Not true, not true.

March 14 08
She wants the love of a penguin, but fucks around with more then three men so shes spitting out sea men.
-haha, yeah you


November 26, 2007

Stories of fiction about other peoples addictions
and just like that he said let it begin
pacing back and forth as if he was really trying to win
No time for rest so he was taking deep breaths within
So much potential being wasted
Had a chance at glory but got shot one day when he was faded
Cant blame the party scene
A nice kid that was harldy mean
but decided to let something in his bloodline
turned into a coke fiend with a constant nosebleed from the lines
Says he's not addicted but he can't keep a steady mind
Sick and twisted is how they depicted his fucked up wife
Sat back and watched as he ruined his life
but i guess it takes two
I remember asking about the goals in life she pursued
She told me she had some new ones
like covering up the smell of drugs with perfume
Her additcions started after she got "hyphy" and dumb
Stole her moms jewelry when she had little to none
Stuck all sorts of needles in her veins never questioning where it was from
She always talk about how god gave free will, at least to some
While i have the privilege of drinking until i'm numb
Others are working in sweatshops and living off crums

Sometimes it's just better to let go
Dont ever look back cause it could fuck up your flow
Might just trip on your own toes
While some call it ignorance it's just the right thing
Let's face it, life has more joy when you're not remembering
I still have flashbacks of seeing my cousin in his closet shivering
Used to be one of those kids jumping off the walls that needed Ridilin
No one believes me when i say that. They just think i'm kidding them
Every time i visit his mom it's like an emotional stab
Reminds me why i only hit the bong and avoided drugs that would get me into rehab
Just wish times could have stayed good with plenty of laughs
Sometimes it just doesn't add up right, I guess I should've done the math
I find myself asking what ways the right path
One meant for me cause i know how gods wrath can be
Pro skater didnt work, so let me think of a plan B
One that can support not just me, but the whole family
Cheers to those that actually reached their dreams
This ones for you little 'd
Fear no foes, they cant do a thing


26 Oct 09

the necessity for contrast is tiring.
this libras trying to keep his scales tipping towards positivity
cause being single daddy means not letting you get to me.

27 Oct 09

if you're feeling me, you're not really dealing trees. to be put simply. only 1 out of 10 of my friends are there for me, the rest are caught up in societies feeding frenzy
really just to busy to relate, but that's great. i'll be the A grade to your lame games
and when im old and my balls are sagging. i'll be the first to shout my personality was never lacking
even now that the dingle berrys stain like grease from fast meat
i'll probably have an old faithful that'll let me grab cheeks
cause finding a true love when i'm sixty, is more sweet to me than risking my dick to std's